I have no idea why I have an entry with that title. For the past three days, every-time I’ve thought about my blog or writing a post, that phrase has immediately popped into my head. After trying to ignore it for three days, I’ve given up. Instead of ignoring it, I’ve decided to write a post about it instead. Hopefully writing about it will help me figure out why it’s coming into my head. At the very least, writing about it will perhaps make it go away. At worst, I’ll write out this puzzling entry, and still be haunted by the phrase every-time I think of blogging.
When I think of that phrase, the first thing that comes to me is Catholicism. However, I’m not Catholic; in fact, I’m not even Christian. I’ve never (ever) gone to confession, so it can’t be my mind playing with a phrase I’m used to uttering. I know I’ve heard the phrase many times on television, but how the phrase would jump from my television viewing to my blogging thoughts, I’ve no idea. The only really religious doings I’ve been up to lately is reading about Buddhism. The book I’m reading right now is Awakening the Buddha Within*; I suppose it would make some sense if the author of the book, Lama Surya Das, had been Catholic before becoming Buddhist, but he wasn’t. He was Jewish. My readings on Buddhism in general shouldn’t make me think of this phrase, or sin in general, because the concept of sin doesn’t really exist in Buddhism, at least not as it does in Christian religions.
Another thought I’ve had is that maybe my subconscious mind is trying to tell me I’ve “sinned” somehow, and that I should blog about it. There’s two problems with this though. One, I can’t think of anything I’ve done that’s a sin (see also above, about sin in Buddhism). Two, if I had sinned, I probably wouldn’t run and broadcast it on the internet. Not unless it was a really juicy, interesting sinful act, anyway, and even then, my wife would probably object.
My final guess is that I’m thinking of this phrase when I think about blogging because, in a way, I’ve been doing poorly on writing here at System 13. (See my previous post; in a nutshell, I believe I’ve been suffering from what I’m quickly coming to think of as 9rules induced silence). I suppose my mind might think of this as sinning, but that’s quite a long shot. I don’t consciously think of struggling with my blog as a sin, and I certainly don’t think about heading to the nearest Catholic church to confess about it. I also know that, if I believed in sin, I wouldn’t view blogging as a sin in itself… so that can’t be it either.
After going through all of these rather implausible explanations, I feel as if I’m no closer to “getting it.” And, while I know it’s rather silly, it is bugging me. Me associating that phrase with blogging makes about as much sense as associating bus-driving with “snazzle frazzle ziff raff.” Anyone have any further ideas?